Fearless Gratitude

I had a wonderful conversation the other day with one of the women in my Fearless Women book, Adrienne. Her father just passed away. Like me, she is adopted, raised Catholic and born in St. Vincent Hospital in Chicago. I was born in St. Vincent Maternity home in Chicago. Yes, we have a lot in common. We both loved our Dad so much. My Dad left us a month after 9/11. I still miss him terribly. Adrienne said something very interesting. What got her through her grief was "fearless gratitude." I think about that phrase everyday. No matter what happens in our lives it's a great mantra.

This morning I woke up with fear in my belly and I thought about fearless gratitude. I am sitting on my porch looking out at the beautiful ancient pine trees singing a sweet song as the wind gently brushes the tops of their branches. Yes, I am grateful. I know I have to head back to LA today and long to stay here in the comfort of the mountains. It's living in the moment and seeing the beauty surrounding us that brings me to fearless gratitude. What if I died this next moment? I would be leaving the planet with my heart full of gratitude for what is in front of me, right now. So I am I waking up with such worry about money, and finances? It doesn't matter in the long run.

I fell asleep listening to radio station on my iPhone app, Hayhouse radio. There was a program with Esther Hicks, who channels Abraham. I woke up hearing her say that if you are in your power, you wake up everyday excited about your life and what will happen that day. How do I get to that? It's funny...I do love my life, I have these profound moments of inspiration and I am blessed with incredible projects. Most often, however, I am filled with thoughts of worry and concern about our finances. It's probably because Joe takes it so much to heart and of course, his heart goes out of rhythm so much lately. How symbolic!

I am rambling in this post. I suppose it's all part of the process to free flow the words to the page. I am proud of the piece I wrote for http://www.inspiremetoday.com/archiveDisp.php?type=0&ref=912. It says everything I feel about life and living.

So I sit on my porch next to my dear husband, Joe, so fearlessly grateful for my life, challenges and all. I am blessed. I am truly grateful.